She's had a niggling hip pain for a while now, years in fact. Finally, after several appointments with doctors and consultants. We may our answer.
She has been very nervous understandably. She has a history with anesthetics wearing off. Or surgery going off plan. Its my job as her husband to try and keep her cool, calm and not panicked.
This has been bloody hard. I am scared. I do worry.
Its only minor surgery, but there is always risk. I can only say this now, as she's unconscious.
I write these blogs as a personal diary and I chose to share some. Likewise, you can chose to read it. Those who know me well, know that I very rarely, if ever, project my panic, worry or stresses.
"Always pretty cool about everything"
"So laid back"
.... right now I'm shitting myself.